Ah, how life can be....

After the pain and neglect I've suffered, when I thought nothing else could hurt me so bad, I was delivered a blow to shatter what was left of me.

Tonight while driving around for hours and watching the sun set, it happened. I fell apart. My life, my dreams, my future - gone. Crying hysterically, driving through tears pouring and coming to the realization that the intentional emotional pain inflicted on me became overwhelming and I.....cracked. Thoughts flowing through my mind of how and why I should go on became too much to handle as I couldn't see the road any longer from the tears.

Out of the corner of my eye I saw a church on a hill. While driving down this dark curving road it called to me and I screetched my tires to make the turn up the hill to the parking lot. The lot was full but I found a place to park and I started to cry harder.

A man approached me and asked if I was alright and I said no, but I would be. We talked for a while and he coaxed me out of my car in to the church. Low and behold, as I entered the church was a good friend of mine, standing, arms wide open to accept me in to his arms and I cried some more. He held me, softly soothed me and wiped my tears. He then sat me down and we listed to the sermon.

I was sent to this place tonight to find myself and to recover from the loss I feel and replace it with love.

Sometimes things aren't meant to be and trying to force it to happen only makes it more difficult and painful.

Love brought me to this place and love will carry me through.

Love to you all